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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

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Sunday, February 27, 2011 ( 12:25 PM )

i really think im getting uglier, when i compare my old photos with my current ones i really see a stark difference. my facial features and skin is really getting distorted wtf.

im not saying that i was good looking i just think that im getting worse.....

on a separate note, yesterday was fun and julian sucks for not letting us visit his house

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Thursday, February 24, 2011 ( 10:54 PM )

find fun in anything and live life as a retard

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Friday, February 18, 2011 ( 10:04 PM )

god i love exercising n basketball

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Wednesday, February 16, 2011 ( 9:37 PM )

hmm i think i am insulting people too much n im not insulting myself enough which makes me look lyk a fucker n its giving ppl a bad impression of me hmmmm

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Sunday, February 13, 2011 ( 12:30 AM )

like the warm summer light

youth wont last

theres nothing we can do to stop time

we need to find a new direction

and follow it to our futures

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Wednesday, February 9, 2011 ( 10:38 PM )

im supposed to be doing work but i dont want to so i shall blog!

had dragon boating and basketball trials today, i think the sudden exposure to the sun has caused me to fall sick because im feeling feverish-_- stupid weak body.

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Monday, February 7, 2011 ( 7:56 PM )

hmmm my class seems to be quite nice, everyone seems to be friendly and loud which is nice.

i was quite afraid that having 16 girls and 6 guys would make the class boring because honestly, how many funny girls do you know? but it's alright! or at least thats what my first impressions are.

i wonder what's moles' class like?

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Sunday, February 6, 2011 ( 9:14 PM )

hmm i think im quite serious about the micro perm thing, the problem is getting my hair to an acceptable length so that it can be permed, hmmm how shall i do that?

i dont think hairclips and hair bands will work in school and the pe teachers are quite anal, i guess if it's not workable i'll leave it to the end of the year where i have enough time to grow out my hair

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( 7:41 PM )

hmmm i think i shall micro perm my hair during the june holidays

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Friday, February 4, 2011 ( 10:13 PM )

doushite kimi wo suki natte shimattandarou

haaa this song has lost it's meaning and feel and emotional connection with me, maybe i should break my heart again

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Wednesday, February 2, 2011 ( 9:09 PM )

mother are you following my blog?

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Tuesday, February 1, 2011 ( 11:25 PM )

should i stop without even starting and try to ignore it? it usually dies away after awhile afterall.

ah fuck it i think i shall _l_

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( 10:53 PM )

fucking pissed right now, i cant fucking shout at the girl cause its totally not her fault and i cant say it to anyone so i shall put it here.

anyways earlier today i asked some girl for help and she didnt want to. fine, ok it's your choice nothing i can do about it. but do you fucking know how fucking irritating these emotions are? i seriously wish that these emotions would just fucking disappear.

do you know what it is fucking like going 7 months with only pain in your heart and then finally opening up when you have come to terms with these emotions? i mean you are fucking 18 as well surely you must have dealt with these things as well.

but once again it isnt your fault because you do not know anything, i know i must fucking look like some player but fuck do u think i approach girls? they usually come to me first and then i get friendly and start talking alot but i almost never fucking make first contact and even if i fucking did it's almost never in this fucking context. god there is no fucking one to blame but me and my fucking irritating emotions i fucking wish i could have a longer period without feeling anything do you know how enjoyable that is? being able to just do what ever i please without feeling anything for anyone?

fuck la this is fucking irritating, once again it's not her fault it's mine.

and now i have to go back to school and put on a fake smile and act for the sake of people i dont even know

yes i know these kinds of rants on the internet seem like a load of self love and it totally is, i cant believe im doing a no one in this world is important but me post wtf, i cant believe ive fallen to this level

damn i feel alot better

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( 9:55 PM )

something interesting happened today but i dont want to blow my own trumpet so ask me!

n orientation finale night was fun! i got higher compared to last year which is nice